Jeremiah 6: 16 “Thus says the LORD: ‘ Stand in the ways and see, and ask for the old paths, where the good way is, and walk in it: then you will find rest for your souls.’”
If you had asked me five years ago where I’d be in May of 2010, I would have said in a hut in the middle of Africa with a baby slung on my back. If you had asked me two years ago, I would’ve said in a trailer in upstate New York. Six months ago I said Rio de Janeiro, Brazil. Well, now it’s May of 2010 and I’m in none of those places.
I have been restless for as long as I can remember. Always longing for new adventures, dreaming of unchartered territories, yearning for foreign lands, aching for something different. I’ve always attributed this to a God-given desire and call to go into all the world and preach the Gospel. While I still believe that is partly the reason, I’m starting to wonder if it’s something more.
In the Princess Bride, towards the end of the movie, Inigo is waiting in the thieves quarters. When the brute squad tries to make him leave he answers, “I am waiting for you, Vizzini. You told me to go back to the beginning. So I have. This is where I am, and this is where I'll stay. I will not be moved.” This is where I am right now. Going back to the beginning, back to the basics of my faith.
For so long I have been focused on doing big things for God, that I’ve forsaken everything else. As Edmund said in Jane Austen’s Mansfield Park, “I was so anxious to do what is right, that I forgot to do what is right.” The Lord calls us to be faithful in the small things, in the day to day grind, in the mundane and ordinary tasks. I want to be a woman of my word. I want people to know that my yes is my yes and my no is my no.
I don’t know how long this will take, but I’m going to put my hand to the plow and not look back. I’m going to figure out the root of this restlessness in my heart and seek to find satisfaction in Christ alone.
If you had asked me five years ago where I’d be in May of 2010, I would have said in a hut in the middle of Africa with a baby slung on my back. If you had asked me two years ago, I would’ve said in a trailer in upstate New York. Six months ago I said Rio de Janeiro, Brazil. Well, now it’s May of 2010 and I’m in none of those places.
I have been restless for as long as I can remember. Always longing for new adventures, dreaming of unchartered territories, yearning for foreign lands, aching for something different. I’ve always attributed this to a God-given desire and call to go into all the world and preach the Gospel. While I still believe that is partly the reason, I’m starting to wonder if it’s something more.
In the Princess Bride, towards the end of the movie, Inigo is waiting in the thieves quarters. When the brute squad tries to make him leave he answers, “I am waiting for you, Vizzini. You told me to go back to the beginning. So I have. This is where I am, and this is where I'll stay. I will not be moved.” This is where I am right now. Going back to the beginning, back to the basics of my faith.
For so long I have been focused on doing big things for God, that I’ve forsaken everything else. As Edmund said in Jane Austen’s Mansfield Park, “I was so anxious to do what is right, that I forgot to do what is right.” The Lord calls us to be faithful in the small things, in the day to day grind, in the mundane and ordinary tasks. I want to be a woman of my word. I want people to know that my yes is my yes and my no is my no.
I don’t know how long this will take, but I’m going to put my hand to the plow and not look back. I’m going to figure out the root of this restlessness in my heart and seek to find satisfaction in Christ alone.
